Not all scars show, not all wounds heal.....

Sitting on the sea-shore I close my eyes,

and try to forget the pain and agony within....

You say I am hated, dreaded and despised,

But those drops of tears will tell you that I've been nice.

I liked you, I missed you and loved you beyond words,

But now you make me realise it was a felony comitted.

I was called heartless and my words were taken for lies,

But even that lie had a grain of truth inside.

According to you I lost your trust,

But there was nothing to lose coz you never trusted me enough,

You believed me and I shattered your hopes.

And you mocked me everytime I suffered and tried to cope.

You want to erase memories of me,

And kill me, slaughter me and rip me apart

But boy it aint that easy

Coz Ill always be there SAFE in your heart.

But no I woudnt ask for forgiveness

My hard core ego woudnt let me

You leave me distressed and I suffer in silence

My life's gone to the dogs and now its a complete mess.

I tried to ease things between us

But it would invariably backfire

Your rude remarks were unintentional...of that i was sure

But you never tried to communicate

Whether your love for me was really so pure.

You always acted soo demanding and victimized

and went a bit far too precipitous and bitter

you may have had plenty of reasons to be distraught

but I was aggravated by the way I was being treated.

Already stabbed by your hurtful words,

You made me cry myself to sleep everyday

Losing myself and completely cracking up

Thats how I lived my life day by day.

Those red puffy eyes

May never scream the truth

But the deafening silence between us

Will definitely wake you up from slumber.

So wake up

Coz it might not be too late

Better now than never coz

I promise I'll make you to beg me forever.

So lick my feet and kiss my shoes

Wag your tail and I might let you lose

But dont dare bark and make things worse

Coz ill pull off your skin and not let you remorse.

Healing my heart and drowning my woe

I commit myself to the bottle

Making merry and dancing to my tunes

But in reality torn between doubts and confusion.

How could i possibly forget??

My sheer astonishment to your angry outbursts

My resentful remembering

My days of utter pain in the heart and my silent suffering.

I hate you so much

That i could never love any one again i felt

But dont take it as an offence

Coz i mean it an insult.

Now that you are gone life's hazy and deceptive

And am mortal afraid coz theres nothing to gain

I have naysayers around me

Telling me that i am going completely insane.

Dont try to soothe the pain

Because the pain will never be soothed

But you rarely take interest in it

Considering it dull and uncouth.

I chastised myself for acting so emotionally

And i cursed myself and talked nonsense

But no more do i have the emotional strength

To counter your current vehemence.

But you still woudnt say sorry

May be because you are stoned or just plain shy

But now i so very wish you were dead

Would have been reason enough for me to cry.

It now seems presumptous that u would care

Your reversion to angry sarcasm

Has eroded my optimism too

But dont worry about me

Because am learning to detest you.